Of course I will pray for you. But I will say something honest to you, based on what I know about healing. The Bible says, “From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.” You have been exposed to so much biblical scholarship. You have been entrusted with so much. You need to decide if the Bible really teaches that healing is for you as a definite gospel promise, and if it is, then you need to make a declaration before God and commit yourself to take sides with the doctrine of healing in public, and to attack all those who oppose it.
You cannot be silent or undecided about this and remain innocent. Do not try to be everybody’s friend. Do not kiss up to Christian figures who are cessationists, and tell yourself that they have made significant contributions in other areas despite their unbelief, because if you do that, you have become nothing more than a religious whore. Do you refuse to stand for this doctrine of the gospel against all opposition? Do you refrain from openly humiliating cessationists by name, but instead even praise and promote them when the focus is on another subject? And then you still expect to benefit from this same doctrine of healing? You have become a religious prostitute and hypocrite. Your own heart condemns you. The Bible says that if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, but if our heart does not condemn us, then we have confidence before God, and we receive from him whatever we ask. God is full of grace, so healing can still happen when you are like this, but you make it difficult for yourself when you whore after unworthy things. It is easier for a physical whore to receive a miracle than for a religious whore to receive a miracle.
After this, the most important person to have faith is you. You must have faith for your own healing based on the word of God. You must pray and speak according to the word of God. Do not pray, “God please heal me, God please heal me.” Say, “God forgives all my iniquities and heals all my diseases, and Jesus took my infirmities and carried my sicknesses. Therefore, I am free from the power of this sickness. I receive healing by faith, and in the name of Jesus I command this sickness to leave me.” This is one proper way to pray. Also, find something good to read on healing. Follow only those who teach healing without leaving room for doubt or failure. Many people who believe in healing nevertheless do not keep up their faith by feeding on the word of God daily, and then they are unprepared when something hits them.